If we added hours to the day...

I would just fill it! Do you ever get so busy that you don't really have time to think? Work is busy, home is busy, life is just busy. And the thing is, most of it is a lot of fun, but sometimes it adds up to being overwhelming. Yesterday, I was so busy at work that I forgot to eat....I forget a lot of things, but usually, eating is not one of them! There just wasn't time to get my sandwich from the refrigerator. Sometimes I feel like Jessie Spano when she had a test and needed to make the workout video with girl's group so she took too many sleeping pills... Last night, I needed to unwind, so I called my nana for some TLC and dinner and a rita at Chuy's. Like all good nana's, she obliged and she sipped her Mexican Martini and chit-chatted with me. It was time well spent, but I couldn't believe I had this ONE night where I had nothing to do, and I filled it. I need to figure out how to decompress.

The thing is, I love being with people. I love being with my family, seeing my friends, being with David.....I don't really like to be alone. I grew up in a family of 5. A very loud, funny, high energy family of 5 at that! There was always gymnastics, cheerleading, baseball, soccer, tennis and karate lessons....and that was just on Tuesdays! We ate on the go, we played on the go, we talked on the go. We just lived life on the go. Then I went to college and joined Pi Phi and met my fabulous friends and we never stopped. Not only were we always on the go, but we were on the go together. Where there was one, there were 3! We went to the dry cleaners together, ate together...heck, Courtney and I even had every class together! Part of the dry cleaners thing is that parking was so hard to come by at A&M. Especially for freshman. We stalked people to get their parking spots. We would sit at the end of a row for 30 minutes listening to our NSYNC, Britney, Kid Rock, Nelly mixes and wait for the dope that needed to go get Wing Stop to give up his parking spot and then we would pounce. So when one of us ventured off campus, we traveled in packs.

Then I moved into the sorority house....I lived with 60 other girls. I was never alone! We brushed our teeth in public, we did our hair in public, we watched "Trading Spaces" and "Centerstage" in groups of 15 in the TV room. There was no privacy and I loved it. On to Midtown....4 girls in one townhouse. A-MAZE-ING. Especially with the likes of Bacardi making homemade apple pies (WHO did that when they were a junior in college?? Don't worry, we made mucho fun of her!) the Loj being the Loj, and the sweetest of Reams having study groups with their TI-83s. Love you girls! My point is, I have always been surrounded with people and things to do. If there was nothing to do, we MADE something to do. We had dance parties, found some reason to have friends over and have fun.

I think this is why I love busyness....but sometimes, I need to relax and rest. I think I am to the point where I need a little bit of that. I have had so much fun meeting my friends for dinner or drinks or something, that I have neglected a bit of ME. While it's all fun, sometimes it might be too much. I have neglected working out, eating well, sitting on the couch with a good magazine and relaxing.

This is my goal for 2009.

Don't you worry that I have already put my name in the hat to be a host house for D-Now at the end of January....and I want to throw an Oscar watching party, and then I'm hosting dinner club on Valentine's Day, and our Annual Conference is at the end of February....so things are looking pretty busy for the next 8 weeks. BUT, I'm going to spend some of my weekdays with myself. So, if you call me for a glass of wine and I happen to have the self-discipline to say no, don't take is personal. I'm taking it personal. :)

Love you all.....mean it!